Montag, 31. Juli 2006

Das Sein bestimmt das Bewusstsein.

Ich stimme diesem Satz von Karl Marx zu. Das Sein bestimmt das Bewusstsein, nicht umgekehrt, wie Hegel noch behauptet hatte. Es gibt nicht einmal eine unmittelbare Wechselwirkung zwischen Sein und Bewusstsein. Vielmehr bestimmt das Sein das Bewusstsein, das Bewusstsein das Handeln, und erst das Handeln wirkt wieder auf das Sein ein.

Sonntag, 30. Juli 2006


Gonna relax tomorrow... as my work has already been done. It will be made available for the public on Tuesday morning. The time in between will be used for beta-testing.

Montag, 17. Juli 2006

Future is getting brighter and brighter

I've just bought the official textbook for my next exam, social medicine. It's merely 140 pages and easy to read - what a great contrast to my previous exam, for which I had to study more than 1000 pages full of strange proper names, complicated chemical formulae, long lists of indications and contraindications, and difficult physiological mechanisms!

I'm rather optimistic about my chances that I'll pass the 12 last exams of my medical studies in the 2 remaining years which the government has allowed me to spend studying until I'll have to do my alternative service. The only difficulty is that I'll have to do a practical course in each subject before taking the related exam, and getting places for these courses isn't always easy.

A sudden idea

During my pharmacology exam I told my professor where I had been spending my clerkships, to which he reacted: "All of these are para-medical subjects!" True. Radiology, radiotherapy, laboratory diagnostics, ... - that's not really what you'd consider core subjects of medicine. Now I've drawn an analogy. In the demoscene, I've been spending my time making a diskmag and reporting about people who made demos, instead of trying to make a demo myself. With time, I've grown to feel bad about this. I must not repeat this error in my medical career. I must start out as a real physician!

Samstag, 8. Juli 2006


As I'm finally being honest to myself (which is the necessary basis for becoming an ordinary human being), I start considering that I'm INTP rather than INTJ.

The belief that introverted intuition were my dominant function stems from the fact that I value ideas a lot, and introverted intuition is the source of ideas. But as a matter of fact, I'm not that good an idea-generator. I mostly take my ideas from the external world.

It was clear for me when I got into Myers-Briggs in summer 2004 that I must be J, because of my upbringing. At least my mother is strongly J, and I've always been told, "What you do, you have to do properly." But as a matter of fact, my life-style is more chaotic than a true J's would probably be. In studying, I often digress, dealing extensively with certain chapters that currently attract my interest, instead of dealing with the chapters I actually planned to study on the very day.

The major point for me to believe I'm rather INTP than INTJ is, however, how others perceive me. Others keep telling me I'm over-analytic, thinking far too much. They've told me so in web-based forums where I write a lot. The reason why I haven't been told that before is that I'm introverted. I do not write in web-based forums to communicate with others; I simply write down what I think. It's introverted thinking.

I'm lagging behind the official medical curriculum; this is because I rather tend to make my own excursions than to follow the plans. My working is more directed towards my inner life than towards the external world. I.e., I'm not studying for my career, but for expanding my knowledge. I often post to medical students' boards and ask detailed questions not for the reason that this knowledge would really be important for exams, but to satisfy my desire for logical understanding of what I'm studying. For exams, it would often be enough just to learn some things from the book by heart, even though they don't fully make sense. (A recent example: Asthma bronchiale is treated with beta-sympathomimetics, although the bronchi are innervated by vagal fibers only; therefore, blocking the vagal fibers would be the logical treatment. So why do beta-sympathomimetics work here, too? That's one of the questions I've posted recently. The answer seems to be that beta-sympathomimetics incrase cAMP in the postsynaptic cell, while one way of vagal transmission has the effect that the level of cAMP in the postsynaptic cell is reduced. I've figured that out myself after reading about the effect of theophylline on the nervous system in Wikipedia.)

I made the experience at school that you have to show how intelligent you are, that's why I'm taking any occasion to do so - and get on the others' nerves. Probably the reason for this is that school isn't made for people like me. It's for extroverted people who like participating in activities with others. My teachers sometimes told me that I made the appearance of being totally absent-minded during their lessons. Only from time to time I raised the hand and said something clever in order to show that I was still there.

Whatever, I'm happy that I have the opportunity to study medicine, and I'm working hard in order to hopefully pass the pharmacology exam on Friday.

Ah yeah...

I now recall I've also planned to read the book on Fuzzy Set Theory in September, as I want to take an exam on it (with the book's author as my examinator) in October.

The website of my former high school has got a new design, Looks a bit better than before now. The curricula have also changed to the better, me thinks. Physics, biology, chemistry labs, both technical and textile handicraft for boys and girls, French in addition to English from grade 1 on... I think both the curricula for "Gymnasium" and "Realgymnasium mit naturwissenschaftlichem Schwerpunkt" are quite good; the other two curricula aren't that exciting.

Yet Another Good Motto

Just found in the Informatik-Forum:

"Nimm das Leben nicht zu ernst - du kommst aus der Sache sowieso nicht lebend raus"

("Don't take life too seriously - you won't get out alive anyway")

Eignungstest für Medizinische Studiengänge

I'm happy that from now on, it's required to pass this test in order to start studying medicine in Vienna! It will make sure that in future, only highly intelligent people will be studying medicine in Vienna. I'm already excited about checking out the freshman chicks coming Winter! Now I can finally choose according to character and looks without having to worry about their intellectual profile.

Another step to my degree finished

As our software engineering project for university has now officially ended, I can concentrate even more on studying pharmacology, which I need badly since the exam is gonna be in exactly a week (July 14th).

Afterwards work on Hugi 32 will start.

In August I'll be working 1 month at Siemens (unless they throw me out before the end of the month).

Maybe I'll have some time to relax in September. I've also had some ideas for intros and games to code - let's see. But perhaps I'll already start working on the project for my Bachelor's degree in September...

Mittwoch, 5. Juli 2006

Sigmund Freud and me

The News Verlag publishes an audio CD series called "Spuren" in which biographies of famous historical persons such as Mozart, Einstein, Heine, Marx, Brecht and Klimt are presented. My mother was given the edition about Sigmund Freud as a present by a colleague of hers and passed the CD on to me. I listened to it a couple of days ago, and I think I'll just tell you some of what I thus learned about Freud without commenting it any further:

Freud was always the best pupil in his class and "in bevorzugter Stellung", which means that he was examined by his teachers far less often than his classmates. He did not believe that it was his vocation to become a physician, neither before, during nor after his medical studies. That's why he needed a whole 8 years to complete his medical degree. (I don't know exactly, but I guess the regular study duration was 5 or 6 years back then. Nowadays it's 6 years.) His reason for studying medicine was his interest in human beings, and his aim in life was to do research and become one of the most famous scientists in the world.

Moreover, in the first 9 years of his marriage, his wife gave birth to 6 children. However, Freud himself originated from a family with a lot of children.